La Sisi

I’m always thinking of you

always

even when I don’t want too

you are everywhere

literally

everywhere

I see you in every single corner of my room

I see the giant teddy bear 

you gave it to me on Valentine’s, 

with your Whataburger uniform on

I see the giant cow

you bought it at Walmart when I asked you to surprise me

I was surprised

I see the strawberry you bought me this past Thursday

God, you are so stubborn

I see the Bandlands Halsey record

to replace my other lost Halsey record

I see the pink salt lamp

that you bought at a random trip to Ross

I see the yellow roses that will never die

just like my love for you

will never die

I see my yellow Fjallraven Kanken bags

I will never know how to pronounce that 

I love them both

I see my crazy high top converse that you bought for my birthday

to match my crazy and unpredictable yet so predictable personality 

I see my graphic liners

which help me create art in my eyelids

I see the white baguette purse

I really don’t want to use it just so I don’t get it dirty

I see all of my snow globes collection

which I’m always so excited to receive every Christmas

one of them is my favorite

your very first gift to me 

that you purchased on that antique shop down in Mesa st

I see our polaroid album

which is full of unforgettable memories

they will forever live in my heart

I see your M charm 

which I will wear soon

just hold on baby 

I see the multiple hats I have 

that remind me of every trip we have ever gone too

I miss that

let’s get lost?

I see the stuffed puppy you got me at the movies

how much did we spend?

I see the Psyduck, it is so much like you

how are your migraines? 

I see the old record we got for free at Cloudcroft

“The Heart-Touching Magic of Jim Nabors”

It’s crazy how things can make you feel so much

I see you in every single corner of my room

even when I don’t want too

I’m always thinking of you

always.

I miss you

I miss your warmth

and how safe I feel when I’m in your arms

I miss the way you walk

and how you stumble when you do

I miss the way you look at me when I walk

and how you look at my ass when I do

I miss your kisses

and how breath taking they are

I miss the way you hug me

and how you swing me around when you do

I miss the way you hold my hand

and how you caress my thumb on the way back

I miss sleeping next to you

and how you snore and move

I miss how we used to be

will I ever have that again?

I miss the way you smile at me when I’m going home

and how to stay until I’m gone

I miss going to your apartment

and how we do nothing together

I miss the way you listen to me when I’m sad

and how you care when I’m not good

I miss the little details

and how you buy me flowers for no reason

I miss how much you love me

and how you would do anything to see me happy

I miss us

I hope we can be us again

Wait for me babe

I love you 

As I’m sitting next to you,

I can only think

How I wish we weren’t together

But at the same time

I never want to let you go

I need some time off

It’s a day after my birthday.

and I just posted pictures from my lovely day,

people liked and people commented wishing me the best

happy there, sad somewhere else.

My love noticed, mentioned it

never commented.

Wish I could be careless, maybe I would feel less insecure

maybe one day he could say

“Hey, you look good”.

I am thinking about you.

More like

I’m thinking about us.

Not on a sexual way, but on a daily way.. I’m thinking about cuddling with you after work on a living room while we have something stupid playing on the TV.

I’m thinking about arriving home with groceries and helping each other out putting them back where they all go… I’m thinking about waking up for no reason at 3 AM on a school night and looking at you while you sleep, kiss your forehead, hold you tight, and go back to sleep.. I am thinking about loving you like no other man has ever loved someone.. Goodnight.

I’m thinking of ending things

‪Imma start uploading tik toks of me dancing without a bra and semi naked and stuff to see if you like them and to see if it makes you as uncomfortable and insecure as I am ‬

I just felt really bad and needed to talk to you, but you’ve been so dry to me and it hurts

When you send your bf sexy pics but dont even open them